i.am.a.mess.

i can't sleep.

i get sick every single time i eat.

my hair's starting to fall out.

i'm dropping weight fast.

i shake constantly.

and i fucking need you. don't make me walk away.

please. don't make me cry.

please. don't tell me not to look at you the way.

when the pipe's at the lips i memorize every time i watch you sleep,

when you smoke the poison that made me leave,

while ignoring my weary, broken hearted glances.

fuck you.

i love you so goddamn fucking much. and i will never stop.

but don't fill me full of hollow lies.

i don't want the life we had before. i will never go back to that.

i don't want your vacant eyes.

i just want to love you....

.....

i need you just as much as you say you need me.

don't make me leave.

fuck your drugs.